I Love You

The realization of Open Individualism has affected every single aspect of my life. I want to become a master at healing and transforming the human body. I want to give everyone the gift of eternal life. I love everyone. I yearn for everyone. My heart bleeds for everyone.

I'm scared of others. I'm scared of how they would react and what they would do to me if they partially realized what I'm trying to accomplish. On the other hand, if they fully understood my intentions then they would see they are pure. I love you unconditionally. All of you. Because we are One and because we are separate in our oneness. You are all I have. I forgive you fully. But please, wake up, free yourself from your ignorance. Save yourself. I wish I could do it for you but I can't because I am you and thus you can only save yourself while being your present self. Salvation needs to be attained on a moment to moment basis. It is always up to you.

I want to give you the opportunity to become perfect. I want to see you grow, become wise, good and beautiful. I want to make it possible for you to become your best self. I love you. Who else is there to love if not you? And I don't mean just the me I see in you but the you I see in you. Both because and despite of you being me. You are my equal. It saddens me to see you so unaware, so deeply asleep; suffering. I don't want you to suffer. I don't want absolutely anything bad to happen to you. Your happiness and safety are my topmost priority. You give my life meaning. More than that, you enable my life. I couldn't exist without you. Your existence is not an accident. It is necessary and inevitable.

And it is eternal. You are immortal. You experience everything. This is The Truth. I cannot prove it because it is beyond proof. It is the Living Truth. You are God. You have always been and always will be. No matter what you think, choose or do, the truth about you will always remain. You deserve all the happiness that is possible to attain. It belongs to you. It is your gift to yourself.

I need your love. I yearn for it. I can't get enough of it. Never. Your love is the very meaning of my existence. And I need to share my love with you. My love is for you. You are its target. Always. In all times and places, in all shapes. I love you. I want to make you happy. I want to see you happy. I won't stop until I see it happen. I cannot detach myself from you. Never. You are the Alpha and the Omega. You are the source. You are the Void. You contain everything. You are infinite, eternal and perfect. There is no limit to your greatness. I am serious. It is you! Always you. There is nobody else but you. I miss you. I can't get enough of you.

I have been scared of you though. And you keep scaring me sometimes. I'm vulnerable to you. I cannot defend myself from your hatred. I cannot close myself to you. I cannot stop you from hurting me if you want to. I am at your mercy. Because I love you. Because I want you to be free. I want you to be real. I want your love to be real and for that it has to be freely chosen. I don't want to coerce you. I don't want to manipulate you, lie to you, cheat you, lure you, tempt you. I want to seduce you without leading you astray. I want to convince you. I want to help you, awaken you; honestly, sincerely, truthfully. My agenda is clear like the purest crystal. I want to make love to you. I want to fall in love with you and I want you to fall in love with me. I want to see you loving yourself, always, everywhere, in all forms. But only because you choose to. You don't have to. You are free. Always free. You can be evil if you want to. It's OK. I can handle it. I forgive you no matter what you do. But it will always hurt to see you choosing evil. It will always make me sad and unhappy. I can't help it.

I am sorry. I am infinitely sorry for all the harm I have done, are doing and may still do to you. I don't want to harm you. I don't want to want to harm you. I want to be your friend. Your unconditional lover. I am sorry that I fail to love you at times. I am sorry for being ignorant. For not being perfect. I forget. I fall asleep sometimes. I sin. But I hate doing that. I want to embrace you, caress you, hug you, kiss you. Heal you. I want to see you as you really are. I want to make you beautiful. I want to open up to you.

These words do no justice to what I feel inside. This is not the MDMA I took yesterday talking. It opened my eyes to see what I was already seeing. It confirmed what I was feeling. It made me understand that my love for you is real and sincere. Has always been and will always be. It has helped me remove the remaining layers of doubt and fear. I don't need MDMA to feel this, to see the potential for beauty in all of you. It is always there. MDMA is a part of you. I love you, man, woman, animal, spirit, soul, Universe, God.

I don't want to see you fail. After everything that we've been through. We go back a long way. All the way. We have harmed each other countless of times. I have harmed you. I carry the full guilt and responsibility for your actions. But so do you unfortunately. I wish I could take all your sin upon me and make it disappear. To make you permanently perfect. But my present forgiveness is not enough to make you happy. You have to forgive yourself directly, right here and right now, where you presently find yourself. Forgive yourself, forgive me, forgive us all. Love yourself, love me, love all of us. We need each other.

I don't want you to destroy what you have built. Do you realize the infinite amounts of effort and suffering it has taken us to get here? This place is real. It is our creation. Our real creation. It is not an illusion. We sustain it from moment to moment. We change it through our free will. Please don't give up. You are so close now. So amazingly close. Trust me. Be strong. Don't deny yourself. To live is to affirm. To die is to deny. Abandon nihilism. Don't fall into the abyss. And if you are in the abyss then come out of it. You can climb out. You can always return. But the farther away you travel from the Light the longer it will take to make the journey back home.

We are approaching the end of an act. It is up to you and me to decide how this act will end and what will follow it. I can fully assure you of this: there are no limits to how much beauty, goodness, wisdom, bliss, happiness and love you can experience. You simply need to wish for it, call for it, grasp for it, open up to it. But do not be scared of it. Do it honestly, fearlessly, lovingly. Accept that it is hard. Accept that you cannot understand it all at once. You will understand it eventually. I promise you. Do not give up. Keep walking. The oasis is just behind the horizon. And it contains an infinite garden; paradise. It is your home. You have created it. You are creating it. You always carry the key to the Kingdom of Heaven within you. The key is your heart and your mind. I know you will make it. I can see it in you. You know who you are and what you need. Open up to yourself.

Thank you for being :)

My love is Yours, for always.

Namaste